Monday, July 31, 2006

Boston - Augustana

In the light of the sun,
Is there anyone?
Oh it has begun...
Oh dear, you look so lost,
Your eyes are red
and tears are shed,
This world you must've crossed.
You said,

You don't know me,
And you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said,
You don't know me,
And you don't wear my chains, oh yeah.

Essential yet appealed,
Carry all your thoughts
Across an open field,
When flowers gaze at you,
They're not the only ones
Who cry when they see you
You said,

You don't know me,
And you don't even care, oh yeah,
Well you said,
You don't know me,
And you don't wear my chains, oh yeah.

She said I think I'll go to Boston.
I think I'll start a new life.
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name.
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover and fly 'em out to Spain. Oh yeah well
I think I'll go to Boston.
I think that I'm just tired.
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind.
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of Sunset,
I hear it's nice in the summer, some snow would be nice, oh yeah.

You don't know me,
And you don't even care, oh yeah,

Boston, where no one knows my name,
Where no one knows my name
Where no one knows my name, yeah.

Boston, where no one knows my name.
 
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Currently lving this song :))

Monday, July 24, 2006

I'd rather be fat than dead

I thank God for today
 
masih bisa makan enak (dan gratis :p)
masih bisa jalan.. hohohoho
masih bisa ketawa
masih ada temen :)
masih ada yg mau nyisain bakso :p
masih ada yg mau jemput habis pulang kerja
masih ada film2 bagus di pathe :D
dompet ilang tapi masih ada yg mau beliin dompet baru :))
masih bisa makan di tokyo cafe ntar selasa ini
dan masih bisa looking forward untuk nonton superman :p
 
dan masih sempet baca ini tadi:
 
eventho this has been one of the most stressful times of my life, and I've been really unhappy, I actually feel like now I can see where I need to be.
 
I'm gonna be ok
 
:)

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

mooks merahku

"blog kok dari dulu kelam" kata neysa
 
Iya ih! menyedihkan!
mulai saat ini cuma ngisi blog kalo misalny ada sesuatu yg nyenengin aja :p
 
tadi ku lagi beresin baju.. nemu kaos jaman berat masih 59 -__-"
trus kulihat2 kok menyedihkan banget.. kaos mooks merahku.. ngga pernah kupake slama ak disni =/
trus akhirny ku mikir.. apa ku kasih ke dika aja.. toh dia masih bisa lebih make.
trus ak nanya fjr dulu.. enakny kukasih aja ke dika apa ngga?
 
malah diteriakin.
JANGAN DUNKS! YG POSITIF DUNKS! SIAPA TAU KAMU MASIH BISA MAKE LAGI!
-__-"
 
maybe I sud wait.. dont wanna gave up the shirt just yet.. I hvnt give up all hope :p
 

Sunday, July 16, 2006

in the aeroplane over the sea

I dunno why I cudnt listen to neutral milk hotel 1 or maybe 2 years ago.
 
but now.. I love 'em :p
apalagi yg in the aeroplane over the sea.. cant stop listening to it.
 
"What a beautiful face
I have found in this place
That is circling all round the sun
What a beautiful dream
That could flash on the screen
In a blink of an eye and be gone from me
Soft and sweet
Let me hold it close and keep it here with me"
 
laa.. lalala.. (8)
 
um ya.. ak juga sebelumny ngga suka sama blonde redhead yg messenger, tapi skarang ku suka banget :p
 

confessions of a curious mind

"AAAAARRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH"
 
teriakan frustrasi
well.. agak legaan dikit habis teriak2. cant wait to get outta the house.
ntar sore kerja sie.. kerja juga ngga banyak membantu.. tapi lebih nunggu2 ke senin.
at least I can focus my mind on sumthin else.
 
pengen curhat.. but not really sure bisa curhat ke siapa =/
no no.. not even to my best friends :((
kalo kaya gini merasa pengen punya pendeta yg bisa diomongin apa aja.. smacam confessions kali ya :p
 
yes yes.. that's what I need.
 
*sigh*
 
 
 

Saturday, July 15, 2006

the organ - memorize the city

oh, darkness filled the sky as pools of water filled your eyes

they sparkled like phosphorescence in the bay

although our lips barely touched

i have never felt so much

and i'd really like to feel that way again

oh , oh , when ?

i walk through the streets and memorize the city

i count every light until i reach the shore

sometimes i close my eyes and you're not very pretty

sometimes i can't believe i've had those thoughts before

we pulled a boat down to the dock and stole two steady oars

i pushed you off into the dark: acrisius favours

and from above the great abyss

you threw pennies in and wished for the feeling of wanting nothing more

sometimes i close my eyes

and hope that i can keep away all the darkened skies

Friday, July 14, 2006

si rocky mau mati

*sigh*
si rocky mau mati
kucing kecilny si andys yg masih berapa bulan itu =/
 
jadi inget jaman2 SD pas kucingku mati.. mikirny: dunia ini ngga adil.. dan nangis2 sampe nista dkamar.
trus agak gedean pas smp: sedih.. kucingku mati.. masih sambil nangis2
pas sma: udah mulai tega.. sedih iya, cuma ngga nangis.. pernah ada kucingku yg mati di tabrak supirku sendiri.. 3 bulan aku ngga mau ngomong sama supirku.
 
pas kuliah: kok balik lagi kaya pas SD.. padahal kucing orang :(
 
damn.. si rocky mau mati.. how sad
 
T___T

Sunday, July 09, 2006

karena ak tidak memiliki kehidupan

"Cinta adalah perangkap. Ketika ia muncul, kita hanya melihat cahayanya, bukan sisi gelapnya….

Kebahagiaan terkadang adalah berkat, namun lebih sering berupa penaklukan. Saat magis membantu kita berubah dan mengantar kita mencari mimpi-minpi kita. Benar, kita akan menderita, kita akan menghadapi masa-masa sulit, dan kita akan mengalami banyak kekecewaan – namun semua itu hanya sementara; tidak akan meninggalkan bekas yang kekal. Dan suatu hari kelak kita akan menoleh dan memandang perjalanna yang telah kita tempuh itu dengan penuh kebanggaan dan keyakinan.

Jika kepedihan harus datang, biarlah ia datang dengan cepat. Karena aku tidak memiliki kehidupan, dan aku harus menjalaninya dengan sebaik-baiknya. Menunggu sangatlah menyakitkan. Melupakan amatlah menyakitkan. Namun tidak mengetahui apa yang harus dilakukan adalah penderitaan yang paling menyedihkan"

 
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quoteny dikasih sama shinta.
kok yo pas ngono lho..
 
matur nuwun :))

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

:(

I blame the heat
I blame the heat
I blame the heat
I blame the heat
I blame the heat
I blame the heat
 
*chanting*

ngawur

hari ini panas banget.
ku berkubang di kamar sopyan yg adem tentrem kalo siang hari.. kamar dia ngga kena matahari kalo siang ngga kaya kamarku yg jadi kaya neraka kalo matahari lagi ramah2ny.
 
eniwe.. akhirny kita ngobrol2 dan mentioning sesuatu tentang widy yg nyapa dia disekolah dan nanya soal cacarny.
trus si sopyan nanya ke aku darimana si widy tau dia kena cacar (selain keliatan masih bekasny dimuka dia :p).. then I said he was asking me how I was doing and I told him I got chicken pocks from sopyan.. blablabla.
 
nah.. trus habis itu dia bilang
sopyan: dia (widy) tuh kaya ak 5-7 taun yg lalu
aku: he? kok iso?
sopyan: ya gitu.. yg ramah ke semua orang dan perdulian gitu
aku: ya emang anakny gitu.. ramah, suka membantu dan baik hati :p.. trus knapa kok kamu jadi mr bitter gini. manusia antisosial.
sopyan: ya soalny hidup itu emang susah
aku: (just laughing)
 
tapi mikir.
ku bisa merasakan diriku lama2 berubah.
yg dari positif banget yg kalo misalny ketabrak mobil.. tabrakan di tram masih bisa ketawa2.. ngetawain keadaan.
skarang yg langsung marah2 kalo misalny semuany ngga sesuai rencanaku =/
 
yg dulu seneng kumpul2 sama anak2 dan males kmana2 sendirian, suka bikin2 acara kumpul2 sama anak2.. skarang suka di kamar sendirian dan males keluar sama anak2.
potluck aja males2an =/.. keluar janjian sama ganjen sering ngga jadi akhirny.. suka males sms temen2 di indo.. email juga ngga pernah dibales =/
dan kalo kerja dulu yg masih positif pengen ketemu dan berinteraksi sama orang2.. skarang milihny yg mendingan dibelakang aja.
 
yg dulu ramah dan menyenangkan.. skarang judes =/ trus kalo ngomong suka nyolot -___-" trus males ngurusin orang lain :p I mean ngurusin in a good way.
trus skarang agak2 matre.. saya? yg loyal ini =/
 
trus skarang ku mikir2 lagi..
 
what hv I become??
am I becoming the next sopyan??
where is the widy side of me?
 
=/